I Hope She Reads This As It Is How I Truely Feel....
"There is a much greater motivation than simply my spoken words.
For me, to love is to commit myself, freely and without reservation. I am sincerely interested in your happiness and well being. Whatever your needs are, I will try to fulfil them and will bend in my values depending on the importance of your need. If you are lonely and need me, I will be there. If in that loneliness you need to talk, I will talk. If you need the strength of human touch, I will touch you. If you need to be held, then I will hold you.
I will try to be constant with you so that you will understand the core of my personality and from that understanding you can gain strength and security that I am acting as me. I may falter with my moods. I may project at times a strangeness that is alien to you, which may bewilder or frighten you. There will be times when you question my motives. But because people are never constant and are as changeable as the seasons, I will try to build up within you a faith in my fundamental attitude and show you that my inconsistency is only for the moment and not a lasting part of me. I will show you love now. Each and everyday, for each day is a lifetime. Every day we live, we learn more how to love. I will not defer my love nor neglect it, for if I wait until tomorrow, tomorrow never comes. It's like a cloud in the sky, passing by. (They always do, you know!)
If I give you kindness and understanding, then I will receive your trust. If I give you hate and dishonesty, I will receive you distrust. If I give you fear and am afraid, you will become afraid and fear me. I will give what I need to receive.
The degree of love I give is determined by my own capability. My capability is determined by the environment of my past existence and my understanding of love, truth and God. My understanding is determined by my parents, friends, and places I have lived and been. Each experience is fed into my mind from living, a gift from God.
I will give you as much love as I can. If you will show me how to give more, then I will give more. If you need me to give more, I will give more. I can only give as much as you need to receive or allow me to give. If you receive all I can give, then my love is endless and fulfilled. If you receive part of my love, then I will give others the balance I am capable of giving. I must give all that I have, being what I am.
Love is the movement of life. I have loved a boy, a girl, my parents, art, and nature. I find all things in life beautiful. No human being or society has the right to condemn the love I feel or my way of expressing it, if I am sincere.
I want to become a truly loving spirit. Let my words, if I must speak, become a restoration of your soul. But when speech is silent, do I project the great depth of my sensitivity? When I touch you, or kiss you, or hold you, I am saying more than a thousand words."
