DILLIGAF - In other words I couldnt give a rodents rectum mate!

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

I Hope She Reads This As It Is How I Truely Feel....

"I Love You"

"There is a much greater motivation than simply my spoken words.

For me, to love is to commit myself, freely and without reservation. I am sincerely interested in your happiness and well being. Whatever your needs are, I will try to fulfil them and will bend in my values depending on the importance of your need. If you are lonely and need me, I will be there. If in that loneliness you need to talk, I will talk. If you need the strength of human touch, I will touch you. If you need to be held, then I will hold you.

I will try to be constant with you so that you will understand the core of my personality and from that understanding you can gain strength and security that I am acting as me. I may falter with my moods. I may project at times a strangeness that is alien to you, which may bewilder or frighten you. There will be times when you question my motives. But because people are never constant and are as changeable as the seasons, I will try to build up within you a faith in my fundamental attitude and show you that my inconsistency is only for the moment and not a lasting part of me. I will show you love now. Each and everyday, for each day is a lifetime. Every day we live, we learn more how to love. I will not defer my love nor neglect it, for if I wait until tomorrow, tomorrow never comes. It's like a cloud in the sky, passing by. (They always do, you know!)

If I give you kindness and understanding, then I will receive your trust. If I give you hate and dishonesty, I will receive you distrust. If I give you fear and am afraid, you will become afraid and fear me. I will give what I need to receive.

The degree of love I give is determined by my own capability. My capability is determined by the environment of my past existence and my understanding of love, truth and God. My understanding is determined by my parents, friends, and places I have lived and been. Each experience is fed into my mind from living, a gift from God.

I will give you as much love as I can. If you will show me how to give more, then I will give more. If you need me to give more, I will give more. I can only give as much as you need to receive or allow me to give. If you receive all I can give, then my love is endless and fulfilled. If you receive part of my love, then I will give others the balance I am capable of giving. I must give all that I have, being what I am.

Love is the movement of life. I have loved a boy, a girl, my parents, art, and nature. I find all things in life beautiful. No human being or society has the right to condemn the love I feel or my way of expressing it, if I am sincere.

I want to become a truly loving spirit. Let my words, if I must speak, become a restoration of your soul. But when speech is silent, do I project the great depth of my sensitivity? When I touch you, or kiss you, or hold you, I am saying more than a thousand words."

realize

Take time to realize
That your warmth is
Crashing down on me
Take time to realize
That I am on your side
Well didn�t I, didn�t I tell you
But I can�t spell it out for you
No it�s never gonna be that simple
No I can�t spell it out for you

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we�d be perfect for each other
And we�ll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We�d never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, now

Take time to realize
Oh oh, I�m on your side
Didn�t I, didn�t I tell you
Take time to realize
Oh oh, I�m on your side
Oh ooo oh ooo oh
But I can�t spell it out for you
No it�s never gonna be that simple
No I can�t spell it out for you

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we�d be perfect for each other
And we�ll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We�d never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, but

It�s not the same
No it�s never the same
If you don�t feel it too
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way
It could be the same for you

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we�d be perfect for each other
And we�ll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We�d never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other

Just realize
What I just realized
That we�d be perfect for each other
And we�ll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We�d never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, now
Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

Friday, February 09, 2007

hmmmm

love?

thats not saying alot yet it is! i dont know what to say here really, all afternoon at work i was writing this in my head yet now nothing is wanting to come out.

can you love with out firsat having given your love away and getting it well shat all over? its an intresting thought isnt it.

i guess i dont know the answer i put my hand up and admit that. and if you let some one who you love go how can you know if they will ever come back.....


this is me rambling i dont know....

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

how true

I might have to take exception to shooting. Normally I'm up for that, but I don't believe in killing the retarded. ~Fluffs

Monday, October 16, 2006

Simple Yet people don't learn

A simple and easy bit of advice, Don't Piss Off The Jon. Yet no-one seems to learn

Friday, September 29, 2006

Relationships?

The last few days have been strange, I've gone from nothing could go wrong to the brown stuff really hitting the fan, i guess that is what can happen when I trust in my own strength.

But moving on ...

I got to thinking about relationships, this morning. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic ... those that are old and familiar ... those that bring up lots of questions .....those that bring you somewhere unexpected ... those that bring you far from where you started .... and those that bring you back.
But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself ... And if you can find someone to love the you you love ... well, that's just amazing.

Then my mind got to thinking about past relationships and x's ...

In mathmatics, we learn that x stands for the unknown, a+b=x, but what's really unknown, is what plus what equals friendship with an x. Is this an unsolvable equation? Or is it possible to transform a once passionate love into something that fits nice and easily onto the friendship shelf?

I cant help but wonder... can you be friends with an x?

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Contact your system admin or technical support group for further assistance.

Hello. You join me in my bed ... where I'm happily typing away, not fully having a purpose to do so, I really don't know why I'm still in bed as I have been awake since 5am but yeah maybe it has something to do with me going out last night or the consumption of Guinness while out, I do however doubt that as I feel fine, no bad head, no reappearance of food.

I feel simple amazing today after what was an mediocre week, nothing overly special happened, there were highs there were lows, confussion crept in alot and still remains. She has caused alot of thought and what i can only relate to as mild heart ache, yet I'm overly happy over it all.

seems a small post with nothing in it, and well it is but its here so you all know I'm still here alive and kicking.

Monday, September 11, 2006

Selah

As a child when we are leaning to read we often skip the word we are struggling with well I did.

I think the truth is we as adult still do it, weather it be word's or emotions, we just ignore or regard them as irrelevent.

There is a word in Psalms which many people skip overf as they don't understand it or know what it means, Irronically this word, "Selah" means to Stop, well in the context in which it is written. As you may know the book Psalms is infact a songbook.

Selah is there as an instraction to the musicians and singers to stop playing, and or to play instramentally, it was designed as a natrual paurse in worship to refect on the words that had just been sung or God. I hink that as people we often avoid Selah as it is very hard, and I'm not just taliking about in worship in our lifes in general.

I firmly believe that in our busy life and thus in worship it is more often than not a whistle stop tour of everything.

I believe we should bring selah back.

On that note i also believe I'm very much at a time of Selah in my life, a place where i need to stop and refect on thing gone and things tat maybe yet to come, this also gives me a chance to wait on God for the next move..... who know to where and what.

Hohum